I think I’ve trained myself to the point where I’m not looking at a calendar and going ‘Wait, it’s April already? I haven’t done jack! MY LIFE SUCKS’ anymore. Well, not as often, anyway. Right now I just look at every new month as a way to start off fresh with my whiteboard schedule and see how far I can go with it. I don’t even feel bad when I miss a day for whatever reason (even if that reason is ‘laziness’). I just do what I can in thirty-odd day increments.
Typing this made me think of something I’d said during a panel at FogCon a few weeks ago, when someone had asked about the ability to get anything done when one already has a full schedule. I’d told them about my whiteboard calendar, telling them that it’s not a matter of getting everything completed in one go; it was a matter of doing doing a little bit at a time, and that would add up. Don’t aim for the finish line every single time…sometimes all you need to do is aim for the end of the chapter, or maybe even a few hundred words. It does indeed add up by the end of it. That’s how I was able to write 80k words for Meet the Lidwells in such a short amount of time.
I will fall back into the occasional ‘I’m not even close to getting any shit done’ stress-out, of course. I’ve been fighting it a lot lately, what with my multiple attempts at trying to write/rewrite/restart the Apartment Complex story. It’s partly why I’m trying out a rough draft of In My Blue World using 750Words; I’m tricking my brain into thinking that I’m being twice as productive instead of spending all that time freaking out over a single project. [I’m actually kind of surprised it’s working, to be honest.]
So yeah, I’m not too worried that it’s April already. In fact, I’ve embraced it — it’s getting warmer here in the Bay Area to the point where I have the window open in Spare Oom to let some fresh air in. It’s also given me the impetus to get my writing work done early so I can get back into the habit of going to the gym after the Day Job!
It’s just a matter of taking it a bit at a time, apparently. Or in this case, a month at a time.